I Tried Writing a Book Once,

I tried writing a book once. I have quite a few pages written actually. Shockingly, I still have it saved on my computer. Not sure why I let it go, but I remember it was the whole reason my mom convinced me to go to Trade School. Which I, to this day, am still not pursuing that career. *Massage Therapy* .

I still remember our conversation.. I was typing up my book and went off to go do something, and so my mom hopped on the computer to exchange some emails.. Little did I know, she was actually reading the book I had started. If I discovered blogs before I started writing that book, my blog posts would be each page of that book.
Anyways, she read it, and was truly impressed. She was like "Kelsey, I wish I could afford to send you to a university to pursue your dream of writing, but I can't. We could try community college or something. I just don't want you to be a food manager the rest of your life."
The next day after she got home from work I was being a good daughter and massaged her shoulders. Then that annoying Everest College commercial came on and two months later I was at Trade School.

Well that's not really the point of this post. The point is that I absolutely love writing. I love to write about the meaning of different things in life, the persepective of different words. So I am thinking of sharing a page with my readers (whoever you may be) but this time I am asking for comments and advice. I want to know what you think. Here goes;

Courage (n.): the quality of mind or spirit that enables a person to
                                          face difficulty, danger, pain, etc., without fear.

                Have you ever tried facing a problem without being afraid? Have you ever tried to have the courage to tell that one person how much you love them, or how much you need them in your life? I’d like to say that I’ve had the courage to do that more than once. Sure, I have, but I wouldn’t deserve the title of having courage because I was always, and still am, afraid to say those things aloud.
                That doesn’t mean you should, though, because every person has an inner strength that involves the influence of courage. Everyone has a soul, or spirit, and they can use it when they choose to, or they can ignore it because they’re afraid of the outcome. They, or you, shouldn’t be afraid of that, you should just be prepared. In the definition to courage it talks about how your mind or spirit enables you to face difficulty, danger and even pain.
                Here are a few examples of people that have more courage than most: someone who joins any force of the military, firefighters, police officers, politicians, pastors, assassins (even if they’re evil), racecar drivers, even actors. You’re probably asking yourself why I would put assassins and actors under those who have courage. I can tell you why. Assassins have courage because they put themselves in danger on purpose no matter what the cost, and they mostly do it for those who can’t do it themselves. It’s a terrible thing really, and no, we shouldn’t look up to someone who murders for a living. But hey, at least they live with no fear. And sure, they probably faced many issues in life that have changed their perspective and gives them the mindset to kill, but they still have the courage to do it.
                Actors. An actor is someone who entertains an audience by becoming someone else. Through movies, musicals, plays, anything really. How can someone that so often has to become someone else have courage? I’ll tell you. They have to face the difficulty of not really knowing their true self because they work so hard to be that person on screen. They have the courage to put so much effort into being another person because it’s what they do. By becoming that person on screen, they end up losing oneself. I’d call that courage.
                If I were to choose my own synonym for courage, I would choose daring. It’s like you’re enabling yourself to face your fears because you’re brave enough to do so. Last time I checked, that was more than anyone could handle. I believe that a courageous person has the strength to accept themselves as they are. They also have the talent to show others what they’re made of, but it’s not to show off. It’s to prove to everyone and anyone that they can be strong and courageous if they put the quality of their mind to it.
                I can admit that there were times when I thought I was a very courageous and fearless person, but I can’t say that I always have been, or that I always be. But there is someone that keeps me selfless, fearless, strong and hopeful. His name is Jesus, and if you don’t believe that, then I am sorry. If you’ve never heard of Him, I’d like to say to you that He’s the most courageous person that you’ll ever hear about. If you don’t believe in Him, than any courage you’ve ever had wasn’t inspired, or considered courage, it was pride. Pride isn’t a good thing, in case you were wondering.
                So when you want to be courageous, just believe, face your fears, and don’t be afraid.